Every night looking out the window with full of blinking stars and moon shines out with light to cover those darkness...just enough...to hear another lullaby.
I still remember when I stay with her that night...seating beside her bed and everything slowly when silent.Like a daddy try to make a bedtime story for his daughter before bed.
"Once upon a time...there was a boy who was stuck into a limbo.It was dark...black and silent cause no one dares to enter that place.Do you wanna know why he wants to go there?"
"Where?"she ask with full excited.
"Because he's searching answer and to know who's the girl behind the limbo and who knows...the girl was...you.."I pranked her.
It was fun to prank someone though...but...those moments I can't truly forget anyway.
27,March.2010
I still remember I played "HUNT and SEEK" with the friends I've know in the villa and it was fun and memorial cause...well...family perhaps?
This is the link>>
HUNT and SEEK
...and on 28,March.2010...I still remember that I dance with her under the moon...teaching her waltz within one step to another although we're just young kids who don't know anything at all.
Here's another link
Dance On The Moon
I can't forget all those moments even thought it has been years ago...and it's strange that now the feeling I have still strong because...nor perhaps...its how we all understand and learn about it.
Helping Her
Heal of Inspiration
She was having fever and I know...as someone who cares we must help...until..yeah... saving her the little lullaby she used to listen...and the song she loved to listen and all the stories I wrote in a little script even though its just an ordinary paper but still...it has words that keep us both in mind.
I thought we'll never part but yet...yeah,I know...just have to accept everything in this world.
Everyone got no choice but to accept what has given by fate anyway...right?
The song...we both used to sing...I miss the way you stroke my hair and pull it and pat your head like little cute puppy...I miss the way you always sneakily sleep in my room...I miss the part when we both dance...I miss almost everything..and the most which I miss is when the way you say good night with adding little snort out there...and I miss you so much.
Well...worry not because yeah...I'm kinda happy that you gave me everything in life and I hope one day...you'll always be in my memorial...as how every night we sing our lullaby.
Benny Liew~
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
~"People Stays and Go..."~
I just finish my work and pack up for my next journey stop which concludes flowers and roses.Everything was clear in out and out so I decided to smash up my bags and ready to go.
Wearing my silly hat might get off my baldness but still those sun shines up my sweat instead...with blue box shirt and jeans.Perhaps wasn't meant for so sure....
14,January.2011...
Tears and rain...
How am I gonna forget those sweet memories?
How am I gonna live without the person I've known...
Or was it a bad timing to know them...
Or...was it a test from God...?
I keep on questioning myself and for instance I fall into a trap where deep down inside my heart it feels so hurt...very hurt...like the internal organ bleeding where you can smile and begone.
There is one answer bug me long time ago...
"I shouldn't have met her nor them in the first place..."~
But I can't...it was the most stupid answer I've ever get in my who ruthless life or wasn't it?
Ceremony of the death...
Her mom can't let her go with such pain...her sister...didn't expect to see someone closed lost...her dad...quite and calm but the inside,here(the heart)...smashed out...and me,lost someone who gave the most inspirational life and truth out there within one step to another.
It was sunny morning...tracing back where we used to see sunset nor sunrise each other.
The songs she wrote,the letter she gave...the moment she give...the life she shared...the things always bear inside me and the inspirational of music and arts....she plant back to me.
The reason I'm active wasn't because I wanted too...it's because someone changed me and to understand and understand the pleasure of the outside world.
The friendship...the people...the family...the love once...its all the thing comes inside you/me.
Let's just say...without music...you can't live cause music is like life.
Anyway..we are the passenger of this world...none can be stop anyway.
The other hand...I can't bear the truth for almost..a year and the half and mourn for her lost until today...
~"I've got everything I want...the friends I have...the life and pleasure happiness moment that comes...the love of the people around me and not just money nor fame...
Its everything that comes..."~
Maybe wasn't to check out how does it feels towards everyone...
What comes in my mind that...
"What if...the people I've known might forget me for sure and friends that I've known...may not known anymore?"~
Not that long until someone gave me the word to understand what is friendship while I'm in National Service PLKN...
~"Friendship always come first in handy..."~
And that is one best answer for my stupid question...and yes,friendship always comes first.
Today...
After sending flowers and roses to her,I bid good bye and wish everything will be normal life as usual but...yes,trouble always come but yet I might just have to calm and stay positive anyway~
In life...you always have to stay who you are...appreciate the life you get and things you have done...for eternity to remember for love that has come...
With love and joy...
Benny Liew Nogen (Babe'Dula)
Wearing my silly hat might get off my baldness but still those sun shines up my sweat instead...with blue box shirt and jeans.Perhaps wasn't meant for so sure....
14,January.2011...
Tears and rain...
How am I gonna forget those sweet memories?
How am I gonna live without the person I've known...
Or was it a bad timing to know them...
Or...was it a test from God...?
I keep on questioning myself and for instance I fall into a trap where deep down inside my heart it feels so hurt...very hurt...like the internal organ bleeding where you can smile and begone.
There is one answer bug me long time ago...
"I shouldn't have met her nor them in the first place..."~
But I can't...it was the most stupid answer I've ever get in my who ruthless life or wasn't it?
Ceremony of the death...
Her mom can't let her go with such pain...her sister...didn't expect to see someone closed lost...her dad...quite and calm but the inside,here(the heart)...smashed out...and me,lost someone who gave the most inspirational life and truth out there within one step to another.
It was sunny morning...tracing back where we used to see sunset nor sunrise each other.
The songs she wrote,the letter she gave...the moment she give...the life she shared...the things always bear inside me and the inspirational of music and arts....she plant back to me.
The reason I'm active wasn't because I wanted too...it's because someone changed me and to understand and understand the pleasure of the outside world.
The friendship...the people...the family...the love once...its all the thing comes inside you/me.
Let's just say...without music...you can't live cause music is like life.
Anyway..we are the passenger of this world...none can be stop anyway.
The other hand...I can't bear the truth for almost..a year and the half and mourn for her lost until today...
~"I've got everything I want...the friends I have...the life and pleasure happiness moment that comes...the love of the people around me and not just money nor fame...
Its everything that comes..."~
Maybe wasn't to check out how does it feels towards everyone...
What comes in my mind that...
"What if...the people I've known might forget me for sure and friends that I've known...may not known anymore?"~
Not that long until someone gave me the word to understand what is friendship while I'm in National Service PLKN...
~"Friendship always come first in handy..."~
And that is one best answer for my stupid question...and yes,friendship always comes first.
Today...
After sending flowers and roses to her,I bid good bye and wish everything will be normal life as usual but...yes,trouble always come but yet I might just have to calm and stay positive anyway~
In life...you always have to stay who you are...appreciate the life you get and things you have done...for eternity to remember for love that has come...
With love and joy...
Benny Liew Nogen (Babe'Dula)
Monday, March 18, 2013
~"The Simple Little Journal..."~
To all readers out there~!! How'dy~
My name is Benny Liew and I'm probably growing older this year which I'm 18...perhaps 19 and so on for the next few years...who knows?
But yet...
I'm just an ordinary kid live nor try to live in a simple way.Maybe not too simple as it was.Day by day everything just keep on running within step we are heading through.
Everyday I'm always thinking about every step that already ruin my past this I take it as a lesson to be learn...and learn back from my mistakes I've already done.
Imagine of a worldly freedom and solid cloud floating here and there...
...and finally a world of great serenity in life...no rage...just peace.
For more than a decade I lived and working out my daily routine makes me out through my own decision of my own life.
I had many names and so does we all had many fames.One single call made us cross out through every tunnel of something that always remind us..
"Our love once..."~
So...there's always simple journal we always recorded in our mind...and what we do is created memories of good nor evil...bad nor spiritually making us to understand more about people and us...perhaps to yourself too.
How simple it goes...as always...~
My name is Benny Liew and I'm probably growing older this year which I'm 18...perhaps 19 and so on for the next few years...who knows?
But yet...
I'm just an ordinary kid live nor try to live in a simple way.Maybe not too simple as it was.Day by day everything just keep on running within step we are heading through.
Everyday I'm always thinking about every step that already ruin my past this I take it as a lesson to be learn...and learn back from my mistakes I've already done.
Imagine of a worldly freedom and solid cloud floating here and there...
...and finally a world of great serenity in life...no rage...just peace.
For more than a decade I lived and working out my daily routine makes me out through my own decision of my own life.
I had many names and so does we all had many fames.One single call made us cross out through every tunnel of something that always remind us..
"Our love once..."~
So...there's always simple journal we always recorded in our mind...and what we do is created memories of good nor evil...bad nor spiritually making us to understand more about people and us...perhaps to yourself too.
How simple it goes...as always...~
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